Lessons Of Kota – Part 14 (The Final Good Bye)

Continuing from the 13th part. It’s gonna be a long one so please be patient. I don’t know what you guys are gonna think about it, but please do drop a mail.

On one fine weekend of March, the winter has just faded and the spring was on the way. We decided to meet up in the mall. So as we were on the 2nd floor, near the food area, there were fewer peoples as compared to normal days. Sherry told me that she needed to take a leak.

I followed her to the gate. As the males and ladies rooms were near to each other, I was just standing at the gate of the men’s room. I was lost in my thought then suddenly she came out, grabbed my hand and pulled me inside the ladies washroom.

It happened in an instant and I couldn’t realize what just happened. When I came to my senses, I was already inside the ladies cubicle. I was sitting on the toilet seat and she was sitting on me.
Me- (in a very low pitch) What the fuck are you doing? I’ll be killed or jailed if anybody found out.

She- Don’t worry, I checked everything and nobody will find out.
Me- If you were this horny then you should have told me. We could have skipped here and gone to someplace else, what’s the need to do it here. (I was sweating out of fear)

She started to kiss me and I also started to get excited due to the fear. She unhooked my pant and started to blow me. Then suddenly some girls came in the washroom. Meri fat ka 4 ho gayi usi waqt, but she ignored them and continued to blow me.

I was praying to god please save me. Just as those girls went out I blew my load in her mouth. Without any care of anything, I pulled my pants up and ran out. Thank god just as I went out of ladies room and was about to enter the men’s room, some ladies came for the washroom.

If I was late even for a second I could have been caught. My heart was pounding like a hammer. I could hear my heartbeat, my ears were red. I was cold due to the fear of getting caught. As I sat on the washroom seat, my mind literally went blank for a second.

And my feet just lost all the strength in them. It took me about 10-15 minutes to get myself together. I freshened up and came out and she was waiting for me.
Me- Never ever do that to me again! (Scared as hell)
She- Mela babu dar gaya kya. (laughingly)

Me- It would be a game for you but literally, my life was at stake. If I was caught, the first thing would have happened to me was jail and a charge sheet. (angrily)
She- Sorry, babu.

I scolded her good for this. But I think I went a bit far and spoiled the mood. She was realizing her mistake but with sad puppy face. I too realized my mistake of going a bit far and apologized to her. But it wasn’t enough. We were still on the door of the washroom.

So instead of going any roundabout method, I took a look of myself around. When I didn’t find anyone to be looking I kissed her lips swiftly and again said sorry. Well, this worked like a charm. And she immediately took hold of my hand and we were roaming like a couple again.

We ate together and then made out in the night. Boy, it was awesome with her. Everything was going fine. But she took a toll on my studies also. We started to indulge in each other a lot and neglected our studies. When it was exam time, I haven’t studied anything much.

But I knew that I had to pay a price for what happened. And considered it a fair price. So instead of fussing over it, I went on with the flow. The exam was in April and I filled the center of examination Indore, M.P, and now the time to part our way came.

I knew from the start that this was going to happen. But never realized that the pain was going to be this much intense. I noticed this a few days before I had to go back to my hometown. We were making out quite much often, even on weekdays, we were like rabbits.

We were making out to our heart’s content. But these days it wasn’t love but it was lust that was in our eyes. We were fucking nonstop because we both knew that these days are limited. Everything that’s started has to end. She also knew that I have to go back to my home town in a few days.

But never showed any signs of sadness or anything. It was pure lust driving us. A few days before when I had to leave, we were making out. She was on top of me, but my mind was filled with all the memories that we have made this far. What happened and what she had to endure.

I was lying on the bed and suddenly a tear rolled down my eye. I didn’t realize that a tear rolled down but she saw and stopped. I was so lost that I didn’t realize she has stopped and then again a tear rolled down my other eye.
Just as the tears rolled down to my neck I felt cold and came back.

But it was too late. She saw those tears and everything that she has been holding back came rushing on the surface. Before I could wipe my tears she started to cry her heart out. When you cry from the bottom of your heart, the voice doesn’t come out, only muffled cries can be heard. she was crying out in pain.

She was crying and crying. I too couldn’t hold back the river and we both cried our hearts out. We knew what’s coming is inevitable, and it’s going to happen no matter what. After crying for almost 2 hours. (I think so because it was evening and it was dark outside).

We both didn’t eat anything and slept into each other arms naked. Every time she woke up, she cried again. I was beginning to realize that the pain of love is far greater than anything. My chest and throat were paining like hell. My eyes were red. I took a selfish decision at that time.

I left at early morning to my room, leaving her sleeping. After that day, we again met in the park. But this time I could see that we both were sad but didn’t want anyone to see us sad. We could see in each other eyes and could realize what we were holding back.

It was the last week before I had to go back. Maya decided to have a get-together. We three were sitting together on a table and sipping coffee. Maya was still on with her teasing but we were not affected by her this time. She too realized this. Maya took hold of each of her hands in her own hands.

I still remember Maya was wearing a black one-piece and Sherry was wearing check shirt and blue jeans. Maya took my left hand in her right hand and took the left hand of Sherry in her right hand. We both looked at Maya simultaneously and tears rolled down our eyes.

I somehow controlled after 2-3 tears but Sherry couldn’t and Maya took her to the washroom. I decided that things can’t go on like this. I have to do something. So I decided to man up, put my broken heart to side and started to use my brain. As they both came from the washroom, the first thing I did was to look both sides and kissed her on lips.

Sherry was startled and Maya was shocked. They both froze on their seats, I looked around and found that one other girl saw what I did. She was discussing that with the boys she was sitting with.

Me- Well I can’t see my princess crying every time. I know that these times are hard, and will never come again. So why not make them worthwhile. When you remember me, a smile should come upon your face, not regret or sadness.

This time I took Sherry’s hand and kissed it. Sherry too got embarrassed and now that other girl and those boys were staring at us. We took off from there and went straight to her friends flat, or the flat was arranged by Maya. In the flat, we drank some cold drinks and ate some snacks.

Maya- Can you guys wait a minute? I need to do something urgently.
Me-Okay but make it quick because I haven’t been teased by you.
Maya took off. After half an hour she called Sherry and took her away. I was sitting alone in the room.

I heard someone come and go in the other room but ignored it as I was lost in my own thoughts. I dozed off for an hour and then Maya woke me up.
Maya- Hey jiju, uth jao, apka intzaar ho raha hai chaliye.
Me- Kahan?
Maya- Just come with me.

I followed her. She gave me a note with, “Thanks for everything jiju. I wish we meet again and I can call you jiju in a literal manner. Enjoy! This is a gift from your Sali.” There was a pill stapled at the corner of the note. I couldn’t understand anything. She left the flat and pointed towards the room.

The room was devoid of light. But I could smell a nice fragrance. I shut the door and it auto locked. Then I searched for the light switch. As I switched on the lights, I was in a heart attack, my heart skipped a beat. There she sat on the bed in a red one-piece, with red lipstick, the rose petals were scattered all over the bed.

I was standing at the door like immovable concrete. Mouth open wide and still holding that note in my left hand. I have never seen anything like this in my life. I was dumbstruck, I was spellbound. I don’t know what happened. But the flow of time stopped for a minute and everything was silent. There was no noise.

All I could see was that red colored lips and a red dress. All this time I was lost in her lips. She was looking gorgeous and one hell of a knockout at that. My body was frozen in the place. All I could move were my eyes. I gazed in her eyes that were already gazing in mine.

It felt like I was being sucked in a black hole. She was looking intimidating that for a second my all my energy was sucked out and my feet lost their strength. I fell down, eyes went blank for a second. this was all probably because my stupid heart pumping a lot of blood in my head.

But hell yeah, I have never experienced anything like this in my whole life. I was sitting on the floor trying to settle my heart beat. I was so messed up from inside that I didn’t know what to do from now on. I just sat there but continued to gaze in her eyes.

I was trying to go to the bottom. but the ride to the bottom of a girls heart is scary, really scary. Those eyes, man those were some eyes to gaze into. Fed up from me messing up she stood up. Just as she stood up I realized, boy this is my night, how could I let her get off the bed like this.

I stood up and immediately took hold of her from her waist. We were both standing so close that even air couldn’t pass. I was still gazing in her eyes. I don’t know what was in her eyes. They were trying to say come to us. I already messed up so I decided to take the lead.

I was looking in her eyes and then gazed back to her lips and she bit her lips. Those red lips were so tempting. I was about to eat them out but controlled my animalistic desire. Again I looked back in her eyes and then while looking in her eyes I kissed her.

We fell on the bed while kissing but didn’t break the kiss. We were totally into it. The world didn’t matter to us now, we were in our own world and Adam and Eve of that world. Well, that was out of the world experience. But then her phone rang. Everything was silent to expect that damn phone.

It was Maya, she put it on speaker.
Maya- Jiju! How is your gift?
Me- Well I haven’t still opened the wrapping. But the wrapping itself looks a shame to remove, still enjoying your gist from over the wrapping.

Sherry- Yaar, abhi to akela chod de, bad mein jo tu bole, par abhi phone rakh de.
Maya- My, aren’t you a horny one. Well, I don’t want to spoil your mood further, so I gonna go now, but jiju, take that pill now. It takes some time for that pill to work.

Maya hung up and first thing Sherry did was to give a glass of milk and I took the pill. WTF! Where did that glass of milk come from?
Sherry- Maya prepared everything.
Maya- That naughty bitch.

Anyway, we continued our play and this time I switched off the main lights and turned on the dim lighting. Well, that dim lighting acted as a catalyst to the mood. We immediately started to go at it. That night we fucked our hearts out. There was no one else in the flat.

So she was also moaning at the top of her voice. The pill did its work and helped a lot. The sheets were messed up. The whole room was smelling of our body sweats and fluids. We were onto each other like to snakes. It went on till morning until Maya knocked on the door.

I don’t know where the night went and the sun came up. But was still going at it. Just as Maya knocked I don’t know what happened. I went out of the rhythm and pushed a bit harder and Sherry moaned equally hard. After that, we all stopped and there was no noise of us or Maya.

Then after a minute,
Maya- Please continue. But if you guys feel like you have done enough then come out to have coffee.

It was around 8 am. But we continued to make out till 11 am. We were exhausted and she was laying in my arms and then again Maya knocked.
Maya- Are you guys done?
Now was the time to face reality, we were done. So I came out first and then she.

Sherry- Don’t you want to go see what happened to your preparations?
Maya- Well I heard and smelled what happened to them.
Me- WWhere is my coffee?
This time they both took each of my ears and pulled together.

Maya & Sherry- Go and make one for yourself!
Me- Why?
Maya- It is 8 am I asked you guys to drink the coffee. But you were so busy that you forgot to eat and drink also.

Sherry-You didn’t let me sleep even a wink.
Me-Okay, okay, I am going, calm down first.
I went to the kitchen, my stomach was growling by the time I reached the kitchen. Well, I don’t know where we got this much energy.

But we kept going at it whole night without eating anything. We also didn’t feel any urge to eat anything. Looked like mind and body wanted to fulfill the hunger of lust first. Well, I was making coffee and thinking that the time came. I was thinking about every moment that went in this year.

Everything from the beginning till today. All kind of question were roaming in my head like what’s gonna happen now? What will happen to me? What will happen to her? What she’ll do? What I’ll do? About the future, about the present. But then decided to go with the flow and kept gazing ahead.

The coffee was served and we all sit together again and were sipping slowly. Nobody uttering anything just the voices of sipping coffee could be heard. I wanted to say something but no word was making sense at the moment. Those moments were kinda awkward.

As soon as I finished I got up first and went to wear and find what was remaining in the room. My shirt was still there in the room and I was only wearing a t-shirt. But as I turned to the room, I couldn’t go in, I came back.
Me- I think its time to go.

Maya- Yes, the owner will be here in the evening.
Sherry- Can’t we…
Me- I don’t think I can…

Maya- But…
Sherry- Let him.
Me- Sorry.

She also knew that this was the last time that we made love. It was much harder for her so she wanted to get over this asap. As I walked to my room, I never looked back and kept walking. Then stopped at a park, sat down, relaxed, took a deep breath and went back to my room.

The next days were hard coz she was occupying my whole mind. She was all over me. I literally came a bit drunk every night. My other friends too noticed this that I am drinking more than I normally do. But what else I could do? She couldn’t let me sleep a wink, all the time I was thinking about her.

Then 2 days before I was to go back home.
Maya (on the phone)- We are going back to Jaipur tomorrow night.
Me-Okay.
Nothing else was said and I cut the phone.

I didn’t have the strength to bear all this alone. But a couple of beers sure do help me to sleep. Next day I reached the railway station 2 hours before her departure. I was early so I was smoking and thinking about what to do? I don’t know how many I smoked.

But when I came to senses I saw both of them coming out of a cab. I finished my smoke and went after them. They both sat on an empty seat on the railway station. Just as they finished arranging their luggage I popped in. They were both surprised but Sherry was happy.

Maya too left us alone and went to another seat while we both were sitting on the seat silently.
Me- I am sorry…
She- It’s my fault too so don’t take the blame alone.
Me- But I didn’t know that this was gonna hurt like hell.

She- Yeah, me too. So what’s it gonna be?
Me- What do you mean?
She- If in future…
Me- Yeah totally, if you were single till then.

She- What would I say that if I were to stay single?
Me- That wouldn’t be a good idea, enjoy your life. These are the days you’ll remember for your whole life. Don’t waste them on someone like me. I don’t deserve them.

She- Never ever say something like this. You made me who I am today, and I am thankful for that.
Me- Same here, you made me who I am today. I think I am better than yesterday. A better man.

After this, we both went into gazing competition and took a dive into each other eyes. And then Maya came, we all talked all sort of things and finally, the announcement for their train was made. Everything stood still for a moment, I was cold.

I couldn’t hear anything for a second, and only the announcement voice was in my mind. I came back when I heard the train horn. the train was stopping at the platform. We all moved towards their coach, I helped them to put their bags and luggage in train.

The train gave horn of departing, and Sherry took hold of me. She hugged me tightly and tears came rolling down. We were in their compartment so nobody could see us. She cried and wet down my shoulder, I controlled myself a lot. My throat was paining, my voice was heavy, the eyes were teary and the train moved.

I kissed on her forehead and hugged her for the last time in my life and went out of the train. Sherry too came to the door and waved to me crying. Then my tears also rolled down as I waved back at her. She was gone.

I puffed a cigarette and went straight to my room, locked my room, switched the lights off and cried my heart out and slept. I woke up as my friend reminded me that we have to go on board the train to go home tonight. So get ready with packing.

I packed my stuff and saw my room for the last time and everything flashed back to me. We boarded the train and as I was sitting on my seat looking at my phone and her number. I deleted it with a smile. I don’t know why but a smile came to my face.

Maybe because I was better than yesterday, maybe I am a good man. Please do mail me your opinions on this at [email protected].