Lust, Trust, Love and the Cupid’s Arrow – Part l

Our story might be like any other story but since love comes and goes in many forms our story was also different from what the world had seen. Love; love is a four letter word I completely misunderstood the day I learned to embrace love. I always believed in love at first sight because according to me if you take more than 6 months to understand that you’re in love then I don’t think your relationship is working out that well. Love is an emotion most of us exploit to reach an orgasm, love has many forms but more specifically I’m talking about the romantic and erotic love you share with your partner. Love is an emotion which requires the bonding between two individuals on a physical, mental, astral and sensual platform and the most pure form of love where you can experience the sharing of this bond is on the bed when you both are exploring the darkest and the brightest areas of each others psyche. Sex is important because it induces, trust and a new level of spiritual understanding between two individuals. My name is Sam and I regard great importance for my visual perceptions, my eyes are always active trying to spot an unusually beautiful sight maybe because of the influence of the camera. I am a creature of passion; writing, photography and thinking are my greatest assets. Her name was Ava and the first time I laid my eyes on her was on my way to the water cooler. She was walking past me and our eyes met, I couldn’t notice anything else about her, because when our eyes locked, it remained so for a moment more than most strangers’ glance. I felt an itch down in my mind, but I did not allow it to bother me.
After that brief meeting I never got a chance to meet her. Our college is huge and with big infrastructure comes a big population. And it was almost impossible for me to find her. Days passed by and so did months. One day a friend of mine invited me to have dinner with a couple of other mutual friends. I agreed and I asked him about the occasion, but he said it was a surprise. I got dressed up and went to the restaurant we had promised to meet each other. When I got there, my friends had ordered a table for us and they were all waiting for me. Finally he announced the occasion with a toast and the occasion was that he got committed to this girl. She was also there and so she introduced herself as Ava. That was our second meeting.
After the second meeting, I felt really happy for my friend and a little jealous too. But obviously he was my best friend and I couldn’t do anything which would hurt him. The days slowly itched by and Ava started to attend our gang meeting’s where all our friends used to hang around in front of the canteen. Since there were both guys and girls in the gang, naturally Ava got closer to everybody and before we knew it she became like any other member of the gang. But like every couple, even my friends had their issues and I started seeing Ava alone for the gang meeting’s more often. Zameer(the friend) often found new excuses to ignore her. But this didn’t deter Ava from meeting the rest of the gang and as a matter of fact she looked much happier alone than she was with Zameer. And I kept my distance from her but I was also a good friend to her. Messaged between us friends were the easiest and most efficient method of communication and thank god text messages replaced letters. We messaged each other often but it was always a conversation between 2 friends and thus nobody bothered about it. After a month, our college closed down for the summer and all of us returned home. But no matter where you are in this world you can keep in touch with anybody, well that’s the beauty about the 21st century. And we exploited that fact by talking to each other more often .She even confessed to me one day that she talked to me more than she talked to her boyfriend. I felt bad about that and I tried to reduce the frequency but I realized that I couldn’t able to talk to her. Soon we became really close and we shared conversations which were supposed to be shared with a trusted partner. But neither me nor she made any move to make our feelings known to each other .One month went by faster than a movie , and we were back in college once again. But this time when I met Ava, she looked at me with a different glare in her eyes. There was some kind of feelings lingering around in those eyes and I knew that if we ever shared a moment alone then…..
My birthday is a very special day and one week before it, I decided to party. So we went to this club one night and had party. After the party I was sitting outside the club on the pavement and I was pretty emotional because the party was a huge success and all my favorite people were around me. It doesn’t take me long to get snooty with booze and that night I was out of my head. So, I was sitting on the pavement drowning in the crocodile tears I shed that night when Ava, who was also equally drunk, popped up out of nowhere in front of me. She had a big smile on her face when she sat next to me. I mumbled a very honest and genuine thank you to her when she looked into my eyes with those big brown eyes of hers. The she whispered the words “I love you “before immediately getting up and following Zameer to their room. That night I couldn’t sleep, I was the person in between the triangle now, I was the one in between my friend and his girlfriend. “Fuck” I whispered before walking into the hotel where we stayed and passed out on the bed.