Dil De Diya

Use dekhkar mera dil bich bich jata tha uske kulhe ke kataav mera dil cheer cheer dete they badan main ek meehi si lahar daud jaati wo tha hi itna attaractive ke kya liklhoon , umr kewal 18 ya jayada se jyadaa 18 par jawani nai nai barsaati nadi ki tarah ubhar ubhar kar aa rahi thi badan itna kashishdaar ke 24-25 saal ke ladke ko bhi maat de de, padta tha 8th main dimaag bhi 8th ka tha par aur baton main 12th ke barabaar tha jo mujhe baad main pata chala, hoth itne raseele ke bus raseela paan bhi sharma jaaye aur gulaabi itne ki gulaab ka phool bhi haar jaaye mulaaayam itne ki jaise resham choo liya ho chanchal itna ki khargosh bhi na ho.

Sach to ye hai ki maine kabhi bhi bhi uske baren main is tarah nahi socha tha ki kabhi use itne najdeek se samajh paoonga ya use dekh paoonga, uska alhardpan khud ba khud hi mujhe uska deewana banaata chala gaya aur main deewana hota gaya itni muhabbat ki usse ki shayad koi ladka bhi kisi ladki se na kare din raat bus uske baren main hi sochta rahta Sahil ye sahil wo haan sahil hi to naam tha uska tha kahan hai Sahil chaudhry , jaisa ki maine bataya ki maine kabhi bhi use is najariye se nahin dekha mujhe yaad hai ki wo jab ka hoga.

Ek din mere saamne kursi par betha tha news paper apni janghon par rakhe hue achanak maine padne ke liye aur main uske jaangho ke beech ke ubhaar ko dekhkar chounk gaya wo bhi achanak haath se chupaate hue uth gaya aur mujhe dekhta hua chala gaya khair I ignored it, pal minute main mintue ghanto main aur ghante din main badal kar waqt gujarta chala gaya , wo mere se shararat karta rahta tha so raha hoon to jor se takiya maar deta , ya khud ba khud hi per dabaane lagta main na manaa kar paata na haan, abhi to mere uske darmiyaan wahi rishta tha jo is duniya ne ya upar waale ne banayaa tha.

Khair ek din wo bhi aaya ki sab rishte pyaar kahen ya hawas ki aandhi main bah gaye ittefak se use ek din ke liye mere ghar par rukna pada us waqt 18 ya 19 ka tha din beeta raat aayi aur andhere ne jameen par aur chaand taron ne aasmaan par apna aur maine bed pe dera jamaa liya wo khud ba khud hi bola ki main to aapke paas hi letunga mera dil saaf tha par kahin na kahin koi ek hawas ya pyaar ka poudha dono taraf hi janam le chukka tha ghadi ne 12 bajaaye wo aa gaya mere pass ek bistar ek hi chadar main need ya hawas main maine apna haath uske upar rakh diya aur shayad usne apna done ke chehre ek taraf they bus hathon ne apna kaam kiya aur hothon ne apna aur saanso ne sabse jyada aur badan ke har hisse ne apna apna kaam kiya mere hathon ko maloom hua ki wo to umr se kahin jyada jawaan aur takatwar hai jo us umr main bahut kam log hote honge.

Khair toofaan gujra aur aakhir main maine usse poocha ki kab jawaan hue uske naram pankhuri daar hont bole isi saal mere hont phir phusphusaaye poocha isse poehle aur kisi ke saath bola nahin pehle aap hi ho, phir wo apni mummy se bahana kar ke mere ghar ek din aur ruka aur ek din maine use roka to kool milakar 3 din humne wahi kiya jo hona tha ya jo nahi hona tha kyon nahin hona tha ye aapko baad main khud hi pata chal jayega.

Phir to ye humara ek har hafte ka practice ho gayi main use apne yahan kisi na kisi bahaane bula hi leta rishta aisa tha ki koi shak nahin karta wo bhi khushi khushi aa jata is tarah se kareeb 3 saal guijar gaye ab wo kareeb 18 ya 19 ka hoga , ye bhi sach hai ki maine usse muhabbat ki hai aur karta rahoonga par ek din achanak kya hua ki maine use bulaya wo aa to gaya par aate hi jaane laga main bata doon ki in 2 -4 saall main humaare beech kabhi bhi is baaren main baat nahin hui thi par us din hui maine usse poocha ke kya wo mere bina rah sakta hai bola haan kyon nahin mere upar to maano bijli gir gayi mera dil beth gaya aur jahan ka tahan hakka bakka khada raha kaafi der main main apne ko sambhaal paya tab main usse bola ki soch lo bola soch liya.

Maine kahan main mar jaaoonga bola mar jaao, maine kaha neend nahi aayegi bola accha hai, main bola bhukh nahin lagegi bola koi baat nahin tab maine apna dil pakka kar ke usse apna rishta todne ka faisla kiya wo bola okey maine theek hai ab kabhi bhi mere ghar na aana agar aao bhi to mere saamne mat aana, khair wo chala gaya ek hafta gujra wo nahin aaya main uski yaad main tadapta raha tadapta raha kabhi main uski shararate yaad karta kabhi uska touch, khair theek Sunday ko wo aa gaya apne aap hi sab gile shikwe door ho gaye saare prem path dobara pade gaye usne mere jism pe pyaar ki kahani likhi maine uske, wo jaise aaya tha usi raaste se chala gaya ek khaalipan chhod kar main apni raaten phir takiye ke sahaare gujaarne laga meetha meetha sa ahsaas lekar bus sahil hi sahil tha har taraf.

15 din ke dauraan mujhe wo sab ke saamne aata aur kabhi mere ko takiye se maar jaata kabhi haath se main sirf use iska pyaar hi samjhta aur enjoy karta(sirf khwaabo main). 16ve din wo aaya main bola kya yaad nahin aayi bola nahi is baar mujhe bahut gussa aaya maine usse bola ki ye jo teri harkaten hain mere jaan lene ko tayyar hain kyo tune is rishte ki shruaat kit hi jo ab nibhaaya nahin jaata ya tu badal gaya hai bola haan main badal gaya hoon to maine usse bola ki aisa kaise tu mujhe akela chhod sakta hai bola kya hua ye to jeewan ka chalan jhai koi aata hai koi jaata hai main bola kya koi aur jeewan main aa gaya bola ye bhi koi nai baat nahin sab ke jeewan main koi na koi aata hai, maine poocha wo pyaar aur wo waade bola pyaar bhulne ke liye aur wade todne ke liye hote hai, maine kahan main kaun hoon bola beeta hua kal.

Main bola is dil ka kya karoon bola kaaboo karna sikho maine kahaa na hoga kaboo to kya karoon bola ye tum jaano maine kaha main mar jaaoonga bola wo tumhaari kismet , main itne gusse main aur gam main tha ki maine use ek jordaar thappad maar diya aur kaha get out from my room never ever come here again. Wo chala gaya na use aana than a wo aaya 1 mahina ho gaya hai maine bhi us ki taraf dekhna to kya us gali se gujrana hi chhod diya jahan wo rahta hai taaki uski surat na dekhoon , kyonki jab pyyaar hai to pyaar aur jab nafrat hai to nafrat. Waise bhi maine pyaar kiya tha aur shayad usko hawas thi, hum aaj bhi ek saath hai par saahil to saahil hi hota hai main bhi saahil ho gaya wo us taraf main is taraf.

Maine us rishte ko khatam kar diya jo usne shuru kiya yaani maine apne rishte ki inteha kar di kyonki wo yahi chahta tha maine har baar uski baat maani aur ab bhi maani yahi to pyaar hai ghoot ghoot ke mar jayenge par uff na karenge Thnx AMAN If anybody want to share his sadness with me then don’t forget to shoot an email on [email protected]