This Is What You Get – Part I

This story has a long build up so if that’s not what you like thanks for looking it up but I’d suggest to try something else. What I’m about to tell you I don’t even know if it happened for sure. My name is Swaroop. I was told my mom wanted to name me that, unfortunately I don’t remember her. She died when I was just over one year old. My dad had little to do with raising me and not cause he did not want to, but cause he did not know how to but he made sure he had all the help he needed from his four sister in laws/ my aunts.

They had little say in it as my dad was the eldest of the five brothers. So this meant that there was always enough female presence in our house. We were not exactly a joint family my aunts would come and go as needed, but then there was my sister Prerna. She is three years older to me. She remembers mom, in fact she was the one who insisted I was named Swaroop as that is what my mom used to call me when I was in the womb.

I and my sister are poles-apart and she is happy being the pretty, popular girl in town with her army of friends and hordes of admirers. I’m the silent loner who has no friends and most kids my age are afraid to talk to me because I’m much bigger than them and always carry this fucked-up look on my face. Basically my sister and my aunts are the only people that I interact with properly, and don’t care what anyone else thinks of me and when in college my sister used to drag me to class every day.

Maybe she felt safe with me fending off boys who kept drooling on her, so I was an escort/bodyguard to her and her friends but I knew I had nowhere else to go and not really much to do. Turning 21 was rough on me; after I graduated B.Com and did not know what to do with my time and then suddenly one day the entire extended family i.e. my uncles, all my aunts and most of my cousins descended on our house.

Later that day I came to know that we were going on pilgrimage as our tour started I realized how little I knew my cousins and that I liked them even less. I guess Prerna was feeling the same way, as the tour went on she kept her distance from the cousins and aunts and often paired with me everywhere we went on the last leg of the tour another family joined us -they were apparently distant relatives whom my uncle had invited- as we headed to a temple they visited often.

This family has just three members dad, mom and son. The guy was older than me but my large physic made look younger but that was also the case with my sister and so I never really gave it a second thought. Anyways as our tour ended we spent an evening at the family’s place and the guy invited me to his room. There we talked for a while and then came out on to a ledge from where we directly saw where my sister and cousins were sitting with my youngest aunt.

Suddenly the guy made a comment on my sister and said how beautiful she was. I didn’t see the point in replying so just kept quite. He felt the need to explain now I can see why she has that image. Now I was little bit angry and stared at him, he chuckled nervously and explained that his friends at our college had said something about her. I felt the need to defend her name and so retaliated well you shouldn’t believe everything you hear in fact she is the greatest.

My mother died when I was very young and she has been the mother for me in more ways than one. I guess that doesn’t show on her pretty face or your friends don’t seem to notice it, do they? He tried to claim me and I never said they were right but you made a point never judge a book by its cover’ right? I just shrugged his comment and went to join my family who were ready to leave back home I didn’t give much thought to what had happened over the past three weeks, neither good nor bad.

I just kept accompanying my sister on her trips to the town and cinemas as she was going out almost every other day with her friend Ramya. One day when we returned from the market Ramya pulled my sister into her room and I went to see if my dad was in the backyard. Suddenly my sister called me to her upstairs room and when I entered Ramya was holding my sister’s had and looking straight down while my sister kept looking at her and me before she said okay.

I have given you many chances to talk to him but nothing. She looked at me once more before she turned back to her and continued this is your last chance. Tell him and I was quite confused as my sister emphasized everything! Ramya slowly lifted her gaze to meet mine and started and I told your sister her voice broken so she stopped and then started again. Do you like me? I did not quite understand the gravity of that question.

Yeah sure, I guess I like you and I said glancing over once to look at Prerna they looked at each other and turned back towards me. Ramya continued why is that you like me? At that time I thought that that was a stupid question because you are my sister’s best friend. I said not realizing my answer was that stupid. Ramya sighed heavily and sat on the cot as Prerna joined her and he doesn’t even understand me, how is he going to love me?

Ramya said referring to me and only know I understood what was going on and as I replayed the entire conversation in my mind I let out a small chuckle. This might have hurt a little, so Ramya left with her eyes almost watering up. Prerna ran after her and caught her at the stairs they spoke in a low voice and Prerna consoled her and brought her back. Ramya now with a slight hush in her voice said I really like you and I have for quite some time now.

I had a very difficult time convincing your sister of my love for you and she paused, all I want to say is that doesn’t matter if this is wrong or weird. All I care is if you love me? She looked up straight into my eyes as she finished and in a moment was again staring at the floor. The way she said whatever she just did made me realize that she might have practiced this speech many times as I cautiously made my way up to her I took in the visual of her standing there in front of the door.

How the silhouette ran across her physic accentuating her full and sexy figure and just as I came up close to her I glanced at my sister before I spoke softly trying to make sure I was going to say the right thing all this time when you were looking at me with your heart filled with love. I paused as she looked back into my eyes. I had nothing but the utmost respect and admiration for you. Just as I do for my sister and she let out a gasp as though she was choking on the thought of me calling her a sister but love knows no bounds, right?

She gently nodded and I have never had any romantic feelings for you. How could I? If I lusted for my sister’s friends it would be the worst betrayal on my part. I can’t hurt her. Not even if she insisted both of them looked at me a little confused as to where I was headed if you want my answer at this very moment then I’m sorry. I waited I while before I continued but if you are willing to wait for some time I can think about it and let you know if my mind changes.

I felt proud having dodged this bullet as I made my way out of the room I just knew Ramya would plead to my sister to try and convince me but I had already made up my mind. That evening I saw Ramya leave and for the first time noticed the way she looked at me and realized that if only I felt otherwise maybe she would be willing to satisfy all my needs but I guess it just didn’t feel right for me and after dinner Prerna called me to her room.

There she played her favourite song at that time on the comp and sat on the bed. I just pulled the chair and sat to her left facing the cot. Thanks ra and she said for what? I was all I asked for not making a scene with Ramya and being my sweet little tammudu bro. I just chuckled okay ra are you going to accept her love? I knew we were headed down this path. See akka, when you two put me in that situation, I did what I thought was the best way to control it and but I am telling you know what and I will tell her later and always.

My mind will not change and she gave me a look that was curios to say the least. So whatever you said was all just a lie to control the situation? She exclaimed and that is when I replayed mornings events in my mind and realized the line and I can never hurt her!’ so I tried to save myself. Well when I said I can’t hurt you I meant it in the sincerest. That is why I’m telling you that no woman other that you has any place in my heart.

She regained the lovely proud look and you say that know but tomorrow when I go to my husband’s place you will not even remember me. Well then there is nothing to worry about, just don’t get married and stay with me and dad forever and I said with a slight grin. Oh! Alaga and yet because of you I’m getting engaged in two weeks.” My heart literally skipped a beat as I looked at her with complete astonishment. She realized the news had left me in shock and tried to explain.

Ounnra, you know that guy’s home we went to at the end of our trip last month. Dad is getting me married off to him and I never realized that so much had happened. You said because of me? Yeah, apparently Babai had proposed months ago, but the groom’s family was not responding with a definite answer. That is why he organized the tour. So the boy can see me in person and by the time we got back home their family called and said that you said something about me that made the boy say he wanted to marry only me.

She explained everything and I guess, Nenu neeke thanks cheppali. She got up off the cot wrapped her hand around my neck and gave me a peck on my left cheek and thank you so much ra na-bujji. She just went to the computer and turned it off and asked me. Ounnra what exactly did you tell him about me? He was talking bad about your character and I said that form a young age you have been like a mother to me more than a mother to me.

I looked at her as she turned swiftly realizing what I had just said and she came back to me and this time held my cheeks in her hands and kissed me on my forehead. I knew that my sister loved me and that I loved her as much, but with that kiss I felt it down to the faint tingling in my bones as I slowly opened my eyes I looked at her with her eyes slightly tearing up and thought maybe, just maybe she might not want to leave me and but I guess after all that had happened.

We both realized that so much of our lives were hidden from each other and it left us just emotionally exhausted for the next couple of days I desperately tried to think of ways to not let this wedding happen but my mind was not with me. I had gone from finding out that my sister’s best friend lusted for me to having realized that most certainly my sister would be getting married and leave our home and but the biggest thing that I realized was the fact that though neither.

Neither she nor I made daily proclamations of our love for each other it was there and it was true. Soon the relatives started pouring in for the engagement ceremony and it did no good for my desperation but eventually I realized that the only person that could stop this would be my sister. There was this small matter of convincing her to do it and also I had less than 10 days to do it in. It is not easy in a traditional Indian marriage to get the bride alone for a few minutes even if you are her own brother but eventually.

I managed to drag her away into our parent’s room, as that would be the last place anyone would look for either one of us. Hmm, Cheppara! She said still giggling over the fun she was having with the festivities. Are you really going to do this? I made sure my tone was as serious as can be. Do what exactly? Leave me and dad and go away. She sighed as she looked at me the same loving way she had always done. Aye, yenti? What’s the matter with you? Is this why you have been so dull lately? Come on bro you realize that this will happen she paused as she held my hand in hers.

Sooner or later! But then if we can’t find a groom that everyone approves of everyone will blame dad and neither one of us can bring shame to him now, can we? I don’t care all I want is for you to be with me forever. Okay then, when they ask me if I like the boy I will say that if I agree to marry him, he must come and stay with us. That way I can be with you always. This arrangement did not make things better for me, in fact even if it did happen which it mostly would not and she would still be someone wife before being my sister.

But what if tomorrow when you get married your bride says the same? What will you do then? She was playing a cunning game with me. I’m never going to get married! I will always be your little brother. All I’m asking is if you can always be my big sister. Rey, we can still do that when I get married and then when I have a baby you will be its Mama Uncle then you can get married and have kids then I will their Attha aunt in life you have to experience everything.

She began to gently stroke the hair above my ears as she painted the picture of our future but I was still convinced that the present was much better than any future I could foresee. No, no other women can be as big a part of my life as you. I love you. Oh, common now when I’m gone you and dad will need someone to take care of you both. Lord knows you can’t do it yourself. Neither can anyone else, only you can do that and that is why I love you but think about what people will say about our family.

The names they will call us and the shame that will be brought on us and our mother! I don’t care about anyone else, I never have. All I care is about us and the fact that I love you. Aiyyo! Yendhukkura illa? Don’t you even care about how I feel? Only then did I realize how selfish I had been and I took a moment and gingerly asked her and do you want to get married and move away? Yes and no and I mean just because I’m married doesn’t mean I won’t love you anymore.

She was almost crying by now yes it does, in fact it means that you will love him and I can’t stand to share you with anyone. She just looked at me for a few seconds and then hugged me. She was still sobbing as she let loose a little bit she whispered in my ears and you know what my decision is and but I’ll think about what you said and let you know if I change my mind and she slowly parted and then left the room.

The next few days we only glanced at each other and thought about what was going to happen the next week. Three days before the engagement my uncle asked me to go with him into town to get the finally few things for the ceremony and finalize the caterers, etc. Half heartedly I left knowing that the pain of being away from my sister was only slightly less than the pain of knowing she was leaving me. I returned the day before the engagement and got busy arranging the thinks I had got from town.

Late that evening one of my cousins told me that my sister was looking for me and that when I meet her I should tell her to come down for supper. Almost reluctantly I made my way to the upstairs bedroom were my sister was brushing her hair in front of the dresser. All I could remember was thinking that she looked even prettier than usual with this glow on her face. Akka, did you call for me?

Hey Ochessava, why did not you come to see me since the afternoon when you arrived. I was just kind a busy, you know and she put the brush down and tying her hair in a loose bun she came towards me. Na Bujjika! Well I just thought I let you know that I thought about our conversation the other day. She paused as I looked at her with anticipation and excitement. She came even closer and continued and I think that she quite literally walked right into me and as I wasn’t expecting it we both fell backwards.

She somehow managed to close the door to the room and we fell on it with my back to it and she, full in my arms. She slowly gazed into one of my eyes and then the other and softly lowered her face until our lips met and I remembered the kiss to my forehead the other day and how awful I seemed in comparison to the one we were having now. It felt painful that was how great it was. Her lips placed diagonally to mine, our eyes closed as if to try and block all other senses and just complete experience the full love that was in our kiss.

It felt like an eternity in a passing moment as I now hardened my grip on her she softly moaned bringing her lips ever so slightly apart mine too parted in response to her warmth against the full length of my body. Now we could literally taste each other’s breaths. Another beautiful moment passed as I felt the most pleasurable pain in me. Finally her hair fell open as she had tied it so loosely. She moaned a little again and this time softly pulled back as she tried to stand straight.

I too followed her and came back onto my feet fully. Finally she broke away and we opened our eyes together and saw the reason for the great feeling that we just experienced a second ago. Well tomorrow come and meet me in my room at 9 and I’ll tell you what I have decided. She said before she hurriedly opened the door and made her way down stairs. What I felt that night I can’t begin to surmise. First I just recounted the beautiful feeling of love I was fully experiencing for my sister.

I could not believe all that had happened in such a short time as well then the thought that maybe she also felt the same love, maybe more. Otherwise why would have kissed me the way she did. All of those feelings and yet as I recount it never did I feel guilt or sinful for the incident or for the selfish way I was feeling possessive over her. I guess my thoughts were just pure love for the one person that mattered most to me in the word as anyone can guess I barely got any sleep that night. The very thought that Prerna might reject the groom okayed by the family to be with me was too exiting to bear.

Also there was just a little bit of anxiety that I would have to protect her from the full blown anger of my dad that added fuel to the fire early next day I was up and helping with the final touches to the preparations, not like they mattered anymore but I couldn’t say or do otherwise. I tried to sneak in to see Prerna but the battalion of cousins and aunts didn’t make things any easier around 9am though I was at the door of her room and after about 5 minutes I finally made eye contact with her. She looked around and seeing all of them around her she looked back and signalled what I read as

Come back in 10 minutes so I left circle the entire house making sure no one needed me or was looking for me and then headed back on the stairs I crossed paths with an aunt who told me that Prerna was getting dressed and I should get tell her to come down straight into the kitchen before the groom’s family arrived. I just nodded and head straight for her room. I knocked on a closed door after about a minute she peered through and made sure that it was indeed me before pulling me in and shutting the door.

She was looking amazing with her hair done and the glow and tint of makeup adding to that she was half clad in her in-skirt and tight low-cut blouse every moment she made the dozen bangles on each hand made the most amazing sound. She was a bit frantic in her actions as she first bolted the door shut and then returned to the dressing table mirror and adjusting her jewellery and then she turned to me and finally went to the cot and sat at the end of it and hung her head in shame.

I felt bad, just seeing her like that made me hate my own existence. I slowly went near her and knelt in front of her and took both her hands in mine resting them on her lap. Nakku telidura, I just can’t make heads or tails of what is going on her tone clarified that she was still struggling with the impending fate. I tried feebly to ease her worries. Anything you decide I will not hold you to it even if you choose to leave me I will accept it. She lifted her gaze to meet mine.

Not immediately but eventually and she gave a fake chuckle at my failed attempt at humor. So you promise to be happy with Ramya or any other girl that finds your interest. That I can’t do and she was clearly disappointed I know I have been acting strangely over the past few weeks but I cannot begin to explain to you my angst at loosing you. I know mom left when I was little but I had no control over that situation but when I thought I might lose you.

I just had to do something. I know I keep saying it over and over again but it is no less true you are the only women in my life and I love you please don’t say that. What? That you love me and every time you say that I feel like just hugging you and never letting go. I love you and I started to close in as I said I over and over again. I love you and one last time I whispered it in her ears and I truly, madly and sadly love you just as she had said she hugged me much more tightly than she ever had and she just kept it like that.

She started kissing my neck and proceed to my ears I too return the treated she started to moan in between her sweet pecks near my ears and then slowly she traced a path to my cheeks then up to my forehead I kept kissing whichever part of her face was accessible to me. Finally she came down along my nose and land two soft pecks on my lips before locking it there. I was back on my knees and she was leaning all the way forward to reach my face. She slowly pushed her tongue through her lips onto mine.

I was not sure what to do and after a few seconds I too parted my lips and let her tongue through. I want to describe the feeling to you but I just don’t think there are any words in any language that can do justice to it. All I will say is to all who remember their first kiss, the true ecstasy lasts till you can hold onto it and to all who are yet to experience it for those few seconds that that kiss will last your entire life, all your experiences the good the bad and the truly sad ones, in fact your entire existence will be validated.

I let her tongue feel around mine I instinctively found my own tongue darting at her and following her as she left my mouth I entered hers and traced the outline of her teeth her inner lips and fidgeted with her tongue after a couple of minutes without breaking the kiss she rose from the bed and lifted me to my feet when I was at my full length she had to break as she could no longer reach me and but she frantically pushed me to the closed door and held me down as she climbed up.

My legs locking her feet around my hips and again kissing me and I first held her around her waist to support her as she straddled me and but soon I was reach for her ass and gently squeezing each cheek simultaneously. Finally I came up on flat on my feet still carrying and kissing her. I turned around and pinned her to the door. She grunted as she broke away from the kiss and looked at me once like is was both telling me never to do that and that she was impressed.

This time and I re started the kiss, bit more forcefully than she had. She moaned into my mouth. She let go of my neck that she was hugging with both arms and reached in-between us and unbuttoned my jeans and reached inside my boxers and kind a’ measured my length. She just flicked the back of her hand and the front of my underwear was pushed down under my balls. She slowly stroked the length of my shaft. Now I broke the kiss, what she was doing to me was truly amazing and quite literally left me short of breath.

I gasped for air she started to nibble on my shoulder and reached behind her with her free hand and got a hold of my right hand and brought it in-between us till it was completely parallel to hers. She guided my hand placed it squarely on top of her mound. Though I was feeling it over her skirt, I still could feel certain warmth as I grasped it wholly. This was my first time and I had no idea of what I was doing. Sensing I could use some direction she slowly reached for my fingers and took two and guided them over her clit and then back again.

After she had mapped it for me I took control and played with her taking my que from her moans. I suddenly felt the need to touch her bare skin so I pulled at her skirt till I could hold the hem in two fingers and raise it over her waist and surprised that she was not wearing any underwear I repeated what I was doing over her skirt now on her pussy lips. She was moaning and pushed me further back to allow for ease of access. That is when I reached for her boobs with my free hand and started to rub each one over her blouse.

Her moans were becoming louder and her breath shorter. She still held my dick in her hand and now she started to stroke it with vigor. Finally she pushed my hand of her pussy and she said sorry but I need this so badly she pulled me by dick and holding on to one shoulder for leverage she raised and lowered herself inserting me into her. Just as the head of my cock went it I did not believe it would be possible. The wall her tight pussy walls held me it was so painful.

I can’t begin to try and imagine how it must have felt for her. She was moaning and squealing and sometimes doing both at the same time. I just held her waist to support her weight. She again lowered herself just a little bit and squealed “Oh God then she raised her a little and then lowered her a bit more and she had before. It took some 20-30 strokes for her to completely fit my cock in her and when she finally did she just hugged me tight and let it be there and slowly she began to bob her waist back and forth.

Till now I just stood there as she was doing all the work but as I felt how good her pussy walls felt each time I came out a little and then how almost like it was trying to push me out as I went back in, I began to take control with my hand holding her waist firmly I began to lift her up until she was almost out and then jerk her back down and make her take me inside her completely. She seemed to enjoy this as she wrapped her legs around under my arse.

She started to push and pull with her legs in sync with my jerks giving the maximum penetration and the maximum pleasure. She let go of my neck and leaned back to the closed door. She looked down at her crotch and seemed pleased with what she saw and then she leaned back into me and kissed me and as I was still banging her she broke the kiss and looked right into my eyes and said Rei mmm and I thought about what you have said oohh.

I think I have made oooucchh hmm the right decision. She leaned in again and gave me a soft kiss you know for everyone involved our dad, ouuhh our relatives and most importantly us hhhmmmm and so what are you going to do? Ledura, if I tell you now you will have to take the blame of knowing my intensions all along. So hhhmmm and I will tell it in front of everyone and you just have to wait and I just continued to bang her against the wall next to the door when we heard a knock at the door.

Prerna just clasped her palms over my mouth and asked Evvaru? Who’s it? My cousin called out Nenu Divyani, the groom’s family has arrived aren’t you ready yet? Almost done, just wrapping the Seera and then I’ll be out. Prerna replied Seri, mom is calling to the kitchen just come straight there.” She announced and left without waiting for a reply.

Prerna looked at me and as she moved her hand over my mouth she replaced it with her lips. Soon I was fucking her with all my might again and she was squealing and tossing her head and kissing me. Once she broke her kiss and started to tremble in my arms and I felt her pussy walls clasp tighter and I felt a gripping sensation at the base of my balls and I began to sprout my semen inside of her and she slowly recovered and lifted herself up and over my dick with a beautiful ‘plop’ sound and both our juices leaked onto the ground.

She took a step to the side and straightened her clothes and jewellery before she went up to the dresser and picked up a saree and as I re-buttoned my jeans she slowly wrapped her saree. This was the first I had seen her and the sexy looks she was giving me I had half a mind to fuck her right there all over again and the raging hard on in my cum-stained boxers agreed as she finally put a pin on her pallu and I went up to her and holding her close I looked in her eyes and leaned in, she must have anticipated a kiss cause she closed her eyes and lightly parted her lips but I stopped half an inch before.

I met her lips and puzzled she opened her eyes and looked at me. I just grinned and blew over her lips and said cheek and I love you. She smiled and planted a wet beautiful kiss on my eager lips when we left the room she held my hand in hers and walked with me a though she wanted everyone to know what we had just done. She played tickling my palm and pressing her boobs on my arms. I thought I loved her and couldn’t lose her before, but now I would literally kill anyone who came in between us.

We came down the stairs she let go of my hand and playfully took two steps back and leaning on me with her hands on my shoulder she guided me to the kitchen. She went inside and my aunts gave her an earful as she took such a long time. She just made-up an excuse saying she isn’t used to wearing a saree and that’s why she took so long. They gave a tray full of coffee cups and send her to the living room where the groom’s family was casually conversing with my dad and uncles.

I stood near a pillar behind where my dad was sitting. After she gave everyone in the room a cup Prerna too joined me and again held my hand. They were talking about so many things before the groom’s father interrupted, That’s all well and good but before we go any deeper we want hear the girl’s opinion. What do you say sweety, do you like our boy? Prerna looked to dad and then to me before she hesitantly spoke. My brother is all my life and I was brazing myself for what she was going to say and to think that this alliance became possible because of him.

I can’t be happier and she said as I felt my heart ripped apart inside my chest. She let go of my hand and went inside the kitchen I would have followed her but my uncle was holding me proudly showing his appreciation. I sank into myself at the thought that somehow I had done this to myself. There are millions ways to love someone but not one reason worth hating anyone.